Saturday, May 22, 2010

Circle of Life


It was his spot. The vantage point from where he observed the comings and goings of the house was a worn corner of a throw rug in the living room nestled up against the couch. Sitting there, he watched meals being made in the kitchen and greeted visitors with a wag cut short by his tail hitting the floor in rhythm. It was the only carpeted area in the center of the house large enough to accommodate his oversized Golden Retriever frame. Once spry and agile, in his final days Beau had come to experience life mostly from his spot and had adapted his life to fit his physical limitations. He could no longer get up when prompted to wrestle, so instead he would leave his hindquarters planted and pivot on his front legs much like an army tank rotates its gun in combat. He would bark and play bite during these WWF-like sessions as if he were 12 weeks old, not 12 years old. He was a guard dog to a fault, warning his masters of impending visitors with his raspy bark. But, seeing that there aren't many dangers to protect against in the country, Beau's warnings were mostly met with "Shut up, Beau!" from those tired of listening to incessent barking. I have a feeling his barks will be missed. Beau died today. It was a humane end to a life filled with long walks, swims in Arkabutla lake, racoon chasing and countless rubs down his long, golden coat. His masters, my in-laws, had their vet put him down in a peaceful manner. Beau knew right up until the end how much he was loved. And, what a loyal dog! Beau and I bonded when I lived with my in-laws for a short period right before getting married and moving to St. Louis. Beau felt it was his protective duty to come sit in front of my bedroom door despite the fact that it was upstairs at the other end of the house. Even if I was going upstairs to quickly grab something I needed, Beau was right behind me making the climb. I'm convinced his will to protect others and serve as constant companion overrode any age-related pain he experienced. Beau wanted you to know he was there in case you needed anything. His house was his domain and one in which he was King. From the well-worn spot on his favorite rug, to the dog hair that will linger for months, Beau will be impossible to forget. The feel of his curly blonde hair and hot breath on your leg (which was sometimes stinky too) and having to say "Excuse me, Beau" anytime you tried to sit on the couch are all Beau-isms that we'll remember and cherish forever. May he rest in peace knowing he'll live on in our hearts.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Mother Nature's Urgency

Yesterday in my 14 week-old daughter I witnessed her first true frustration with forward progress. She had been running a fever all day (second illness in as many weeks as she has been in daycare) and before my eyes, she was morphing from a happy baby to one whose sensitivity skyrocketed! The bottom lip had made several protrusions by mid-day! When I would set her down on a blanket between feedings, changings, burpings, etc., she would roll up on her left side almost insticintively, like her body was betraying her desire to do what we do best when we're sick - lay around and do nothing! As soon as she rolled, I could interpret her grunts and moans (as all good mothers can do) to mean, "Mom, what is happening to me? Why am I rolled over on my face? I don't wanna be!" However, Mother Nature and forward progress, in terms of physical development, have a more important agenda than feeling lousy from the latest exposure at a germy daycare (even though we LOVE that germy daycare!). The lesson? We must meet our milestones if we're going to be successful and thrive despite our current condition. We all experience such challenges, even as adults. There are many times when we find ourselves in situations that we don't desire, and maybe consider uncomfortable, but are otherwise necessary for forward progress and continued development. If we can get through these times, even if help is needed to reposition ourselves, then we have to take that guidance and march on (or maybe just simply roll over)!